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Mimi 
The playground when we got there 
The playground when we were done... 
Me and Sashka 
The Paris team 
Me and David 
On the bus 
Me, Jenna and Petia 
Rach p.s. I'll write about my trip as soon as I can |
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|  If there be sorrow let it be for things undone... undreamed unrealized unattained to these add one; love withheld........ .......restrained - Mari Evans |
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| This year looks like it'll be full of wonderful new things. I look forward to it, but some how I feel scared too. Of what I'm not sure, I guess its the quiet and hard times that will come with the good. I tell myself that quiet is good if I use it right and that the hard times will help me grow and mature. still I'm scared. I don't feel strong or brave enough to do the things ahead. I feel little. maybe it's just the day I'm having. Rach |
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| We had a great Christmas! 
Rach |
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| I got to sit in on our womans group last Tuesday. It really nailed me. One thing inparticular that Beth More said really got me. She said that we have our relationships and Christian friends. There is often a strong one in the relationship and the other that kind of relys on the strong one. She said that there are times when the strong one is not present and the other has to face a problem without their strong person. She said that sometimes the other, instead of or before facing the probeum, looks for their strong one. When they don't find that strong one they either despair and try their best not to face the problem or the fire, as Beth Moore calls it.......or the weaker one can stand their tallest and their strongest and just trust God to get them through. Beth Moore calls that last choice a "step up", because when the weaker one choses that one, the probem or fire makes them stronger and they are no longer the weakest. God called them to "step up". Beth also said that when the weaker one was just being presented with a problum and sees that their strong one is gone, they will feel a lot of emotions; fear for one, anger maybe at the strong one's absence.....you get the idea. The reason this part of her talk got me the most is because it brought to light what I was feeling and why. I was missing my sister but it went deeper than that. I was missing my strong one. Mimi was, and is, my strong one spiritually. My sister was to some degree a sheild that I unknowingly hid behind. Now that my strong one is gone, I feel very uncovered, weak. I'd never seen myself as weak until it came time to be strong and brave. It exposed how weak and scared I am. But slowly , as I press into my Lord, I find that He is giving me strength and courage. He has become my Shield. I must lean on Him for strength. Can it be that God it setting this weak little girl up for a "step up"? He can do all things. I still miss my strong one. I'll always miss my sister, But I think that God wants to be my strong One. He's slowly setting me up to be strong? I sometimes feel like a twelve year old suddenly put into a fifteen year olds skin. I just have to be brave and as strong as I can be. God can fill all the empty space! Rach |
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